Couch, Floor, Cieling, Door

I wash away with the shorline in the middle of the night
When I wake up alone I am clutching my pillow tight
Waking up next to no woman I am tired and confused
I will destroy my lungs and fill my stomache with booze
When I dissapear my family is full of upset and fear
When I dissapear I am surely up to no good
They’re waiting for a return
I am always waiting for you to show up first
Where have I been?
Leave it alone
No one must know where I have been
I am uncaught and still swimming alone in the lake
We will destroy the world you have known
So party or don’t
I won’t let you know
Where I’ve been
You can leave me alone
I’m sure there’s no way you won’t
Just wait for me to dissapear again
She wrote a song about me
Back when I was young and some sort of clean
I was a good young man
Reading and riting and letting go
Now I’m up late screaming fuck the man
Fuck the system, fuck whatever I can
She moved away and is in college today
She understood what it was I had to say
But she was a sister who dissapeared
Just like the first
She took away a spirit of freedom
And I let go without a whisper
I may be due explanations
But the line is long
My friends don’t have time to step up
Ad before  you know it I’ll be gone
Touch me or don’t
Just so you know
I can’t stay like this for long
The tide is coming in and soon I will be gone again
I could speak with all the fish in the ocean
I could drag you down with me so far that you never could breathe
But I’m sure you will always find someone better than me
So touch me or don’t, i’ll still dissapear
Leave me alone, I will dissapear

we all want our friends in high places

That New Single Sampled My Brain

I almost said I was done
But I realized it would spoil all our fun
So I’ll just keep on
Keep on telling lies to everyone
About everything
I have no reason
There’s no purpose or meaning
I just want to keep my eyes gleaming
But you talk about rocks
In the middle of the night when you are drunk
And we steal the couch
We steal the floor
We steal the water bottle
And the amp from beneath his bead
So many questions swimming in thier heads
Can we lay on the beach
With a fire burning inches from our heads
Write down your memories
Put them in your piece and throw it out to sea
We’re the lucky ones
But we’re only lucky because we aren’t dead
Thats what the chef on the TV said
The government won’t stop sending signals to my head
Because man is destined to be free
Thats not what they want from you and me
Man is meant to be happy
But we settle for less
And I’m so sorry
Will you settle for less?
Make a growing list of future regrets
But who really gives a shit
‘Cause someday we’ll be lying in the ground
Right now we’re only lucky ’cause we ain’t dead

i always waited

You Get The Car, I’ll –

I walk quietly alone
Keep my secrets to myself
Shoulder my burdens
To shelter you from myself
Much like the world you hid from me
A world I’ve loved and known
Leaving me awake and lying alone
Life is making demands
One swift turn
And I’m in another direction
An exchange of money and possesion
Pick your own poison
Will you fall for every empty excuse?
Is there really nothing else to do?
Break out the bottles of wine
Give me a break
Just give me some time
I can’t keep my head straight
Can’t bare to keep going
But we’re always going
As the day gets brighter
My thoughts get darker
I want to wake up holding you
Wether or not its legitimate
I’m tired of being lonely and unintimate
Let go of my innocence
Open up the fload gates
This is not a gift for you
I’m not challenging you to a race
I keep on babling
While you shut up to save face
How long can I live
With glazed over eyes
When will the world be waking up?
I’m still waiting
For years I’ve been sending the message
Must I always be waiting?
Shoulder my burdens
Theres some you’d better never have known
Scars and lullabies
To keep me bleeding and occupied
What am I doing waiting for the phone?
I’d tey harder at life
But I’m stuck here walking alone
Waiting for you to come along
Passing time with drugs and alcohol
The medication never runs thin
But I’d rather waste away, get stoned

Come on and give me a kiss
But then I’ll have to marry you
Baby is that so bad
I could marry you
So let’s drive to vegas, do you got any cash?
Well maybe I’m just kidding
Maybe I am serious
Didn’t stop to think about it
What are you waiting for
I freak out
Yeah, well we both got quirks
But I’m kind of weird
Well I am as weird as they come
When does this conversation end?
When your lips touch mine
Roll over so we can cuddle
Wake up in a sweat
Wake up aand your leaving

Wake up and I don’t know how long its been

hell is in this room

Everything

Are we ignoring
Or is it ignorance?
Am I snoring?
Or just boring
So tired of…

everything

So what am I to do
Can’t fix a home with glue
So I guess I’m just homeless
Try not to be hopeless
Whis I knew…

everything

So where you been?
I shut my mouth
Hide my face
Black out
What a disgrace
Well, you know
No one can fix…

everything

Who I Am

So you’ve heard him say
It’s ok to hate me
And I will continue to drive
Drive fucking far away
Until I run out of gas
Then I will walk a thousand miles
Over state lines
Borders and boundries broken
Bridges set on fire
But I never stayed long enough to see
Did the firemen show up
After I left the stage?
well I don’t want you to hate me
But It’s ok if you need to
I drove off in the middle of the night
Stopped as I hit the ocean
just to get away from your abuse
And I ran off after work that night
When you said you didn’t wanat this
You don’t want to fight
Well don’t you remember who I am?
I am suffocating myself
With prescription pills
And illegal self medication
I can’t sleep at night
I toss and turn
I know what I’ve done hasn’t always bee right
But do I deserve to lie awake alone
I will be like this forever
I’m sorry mother
I’m sorry father
I swear to you I never ment to put you through it all
But I will stay up in the dark alleys and back country roads
Swearing off religion and whore like girls
Saying fuck the man
Fuck the system
Fuck this fucked up land
I’m sorry but it’s just who I am
So hate me right away
Hate me for not applying myself
Now I’m too far away
hate me for Loving you all too death
Ther’s just oo much in my head that you’ll never understand
But this is my last apology
I can’t change who I am
One day I will show up
And we can end this moratorium
but until then just calm your heart and head
Go to sleep and stop waiting
Cause I don’t know when I’ll be coming back
Forgive me or forget me
This is just who I am

You Don’t Know (Say Anything Else) 

 

So I spent my time
Trying to get to you
You wouldn’t let me  in
You’re such a tease
You said, h, please
I shook my head
And walked out the door
But to my suprise
I would wake up
Open my eyes
Feel real arms around me
Feel you breathing
But your a nobody
Ad you know it
I aint anybody either
But you told me I aint the one
And I’m only being honest when I say
I don’t think this would go anywhere anyway
Say, hey, hey, hey
What, what, are you doing here?
I can not wait, wait… wait
But I know I am only dreamig
Reality is a fickle mistake
You must have been misplaced
I will go home and pray
Pray that I can wake up and find the real one waiting…
For me?

(yoursovain) youprobablythinkthispostisaboutyou

I Ain’t Rich and I Ain’t Free

i dont care too much about anything
i’ve seen the future
i don’t care to go further
wake me when this ride ends
i’m tired and weak
part of age ad bad upkeep
i need life
pump it into me
I need to be free
why do i have to be binded down by currency?
why are you bothering me?
just let me get lost
in my blanket and sheets
i need room
i must breathe
but i am holed inside my head
thinking of all the bitter things
that shant be said
tired and alone
just leave me here alone

Love At Zero

He said the work was very vaginal
He’d rather be at home
She wish’s she could go back to bed
He said, I need to check my pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Did you hear that sound?
Was it from above
Or is there something brewing underground?
The hippie lady said
I feel the grounds pulse
Pulse
Pulse
And the lights go out
Pulse
And the man is about to cry
He would rather give up and die
But lifes not so bad
Why can’t you see
Life ain’t so bad
Do you have no pulse?
Pieces of everythig
Creating a bitter dream
Sleepwalking
without a pulse

Dire Affliction

The kids drugged out
Frustrated and alone
Bad trip
Hard comedown
But when he wakes up on the wrong side of town
His head hurts
No place for a crown
Sobriety sucks the life out of him
And he remembers why he does drugs
And he pawns a stereo
‘Cause they always need more

I Am What I 

 

Mama said
Aren’t you tired of the party scene?
I said I ain’t seen a party in a while
But last night I was fucked up
The night before I was drunk
I can barely keep track of the days
Do you think you can get away with it?
Do you think you can be jobless?
Do you think your an artist?
Do you think you can steal from the rich?
Do you think you can dodge the bullets forever?
I don’t think you can
I don’t think you can
I don’t think you can, no
I don’t think you can do a goddamn thing about it
Ride the waves
Follow the flow
Just don’t fall through the floor
Hell is a long way down
And you got a lot of time to go

Flies On The Ground
They’re dropping like flies
we fell out the same day
A year ago
Has it really been?
And then he joined us
Flies on the ground
And then she joined us
And another
We’re dropping out
We’re falling out
Keep ‘em coming
We’re piling up
Flies on the ground

Untitled 

Engine overheats
Pages turn
Too tired to read
My eyes are in pain
As I strain
To see I don’t know the names
I’m so tired
My brain is on fire
I am my own destroyer
I hate myself
And self-destruct
And where do you go too
When theres nowhere left to run?
And who do you turn to
When you’ve pushed everyone away?
I miss you all
I’m sorry I’m nor like you
I ran myself into the ground
And the wreakage is on fire
My foreheads burning up
The sweat drips
My eyes are tired
Soon they will close
But let it be known
I don’t want to die alone