Emotional Wipeout
I’ve been tired
So tired
It goes on and on for days
And months
And the years rack up
Leaving me with questions
Why aren’t you the one?
Your just like all the other ones
So I drown my doubts in sympathy
And I drink another bottke of your empathy
As long as these drinks keep coming
I will consume
Before I become consumed
But is it such a wrong thing to wonder
My feelings can’t be a blunder
You take my heart out of the blender
Just to put it back unintentionally
I’d hope that your the one
But I know your just like all the other ones
So this time am I going to stay or run?
Need to get out of this town
But I’m hoping for a better way
I don’t want to see you go that way
I’ll cry outside your door all night
Sleep in her arms all day
I wake up and the sun won’t shine its rays
It’s another rainy day
I slip on the sidewalks
And then I fall
I pick myself up
And watch you fall
Can’t help you back up
We fall apart
We fall together
Brothers and sisters
Of this fucked up world order
Your growing dissatisfaction with life
Is inevitable
So hope they’re the one
They can’t all be the same
Just have some fun
And at the end of the day we’ll sleep
And at the end of our lives we will sleep for good
We Sleep On Asphault At Night, To Feel Alive … And Wake Up Dead
I found letters
Typed out and formatted
On a screen in a computer lab
They said I’m sorry
And I said I’m sorry too
But no one really cares
We’re all dealing with our own shit
I swear to god I don’t know what love is anymore
Good thing I don’t need to break the news to you
But hey I want to believe
I really want to know what it means
I’m sorry I don’t know what I’m doing
You’d be sorry if you knew what you were doing to me
At least thats a belief I hold on to
You are a metaphore I cannot create
You are the dreamy feeling of when I wake
But you already know
And I’m not sure that it’s enough
I Should Be Laughing Right Now
I know that you are just another person
Another girl with a dream
But who knows what they want to be
When they are only nineteen?
Oh, I want to love you so much
But like I said I don’t know what that is
You ask and I will reply
And when the kids grow up
They will realize
It’s not all about the sex and drugs
And when we’re old enough with kids of our own
We’ll know what love is
But in this hell hole world
Pick and choose
Do they choose you
Or do you approve
Pick and choose
Your battles are not a part
Of your bruised and battered heart
We all have games we play
And we all hear the lies we say
The night is upon us
We wake to curse the day
I thirst for more
But, God, I will ignore
I am just another one
And you don’t know whats going on
Now Passing One AM
So who do you go to
When there is no one left to talk to
Where do you run
When your car is out of gas
You’re fed up
Swear to god you are done
And Where does all the pain come from
When you haven’t broken bones
You haven’t put your fist in walls
No, you haven’t even drawn blood
You wait
And you wait forever
And ever
And the preacher says amen
Can you look them in the eyes
And say you feel alive
Dead yet still hurting
With a fear of nothingness
Is it all that keeps you living
And who’s arms do you long for
Will they wipe away your tears
And when you cry are you ashamed
Even when alone
Crying out names
And no lover you wanted comes
You’ve waited so long
When you look back at your life
Do you feel so young?
Are your memories stacked in years
Or do you measure them in tears
What drugs are going to cover this up
Will it help you to get fucked up
When you’re already fucked up
You can drown yourself in alcohol
Or get lower with alot of downers
Or stay up all night waiting to come down
Until you are alone
Wishing for nothing but an end
But it never ends
You’ll always wake up tomorrow
Until you sleep forever
But what until then?
Everyone Who Lives Will Someday Die and Die Alone
Drink luke warm water
You’re restless
Can’t handle it anymore
Well at least your honest
Well, at least you wanted to come back
But you can’t move
And I can’t stop moving
So restless
So restless
Can’t handle it
Well another day will begin
When I can finally sleep again
Well I wanted to write an epic love poem
But I don’t know what love is at all
And I wanted to paint a masterpiece
But I have no muse
No arms to hold me when I can not sleep
This ttown is killing me
I screamed
Or maybe you said it too
Either way it was on both our minds
This town is ghost land
Not everyone is dead
But they are not far away
This town is taking away
All the good memories it once gave
Or are the good times killing me
Am I the one killing me?
Social suicide
Long depressive diatribes
Sleepless nights
And self medication with drugs and alcohol
Where are you going to go?
I know you want to run away
We should go there together
Before this town strips our hides and turns us into leather
Dark Matter On The Brain, Oh, Sunny Day!
We went the whole night without sleep
At least it was with me
Now I’m eight hours and forty minutes into this day
And I am so goddamn tired of it
Another monday I will soon forget
Well I hope so anyway
My eyes need to adjust
I got to get out on my own
I’ve got to get out of this town
I’ve got to wake up
Life is not a dream
It’s a lie we believe
It’s a travisty
But the sun has risen
A new day has begun
Opportunities are abounding
But I am unmotivated
And I am uninspired
And I am hating life
Such a bitter walking bruise
Angry and confused
Don’t get in my way
Waiting on phone calls all day
Where am I going anyway?
Drown me in sunlight
I will arise again someday
Smother me under the weight of my decisions
I will come back someday
But I will never say sorry
I can’t say sorry if I was not wrong
I may have not been right
But I fuck up all the way along
Get out
A new day has begun!
Borderline ( I Was Just Thinking )
Well you told me you feel the same
At least thats what I left the conversation with
Well the hours pass by
As I try to stare you in the eyes
While you were looking away
Seconds take forever
When theres nothing to say
Stale air
Echoing thoughts
Who wants to be alone
You said you would be coming home
Well mama I aint got no home no more
Am I disconnected
Did you find me before or after I crossed the borderline?
Well either way now is too late
We are running out of time
Just keep the blood in your head
Make sure it’s connected to your body
hear the words he said
Oh, lover, you should have come over…
Before it’s too late
Before one of us is dead
Cry for hours in your bed
Over words that no one has ever said
Well yo’ve got to stop all that thinking
Well at least you apologized
In your own way
And I gave you my heart
In my own fucked up way
It was made of paper-mache
Colored with pastels and hungn up on display
It just happens to have happened that way
It just had to be something I had to create
To replace what was torn from me
And I was just thinking
If you changed your mind
You’d probably be happier some of the time
Well I’d hope we could be happy all the time
But until then we’re felons
Just murdering time
Balancing on the borderline
In The End It’s All The Same
You didn’t know who I was
And I didn’t know what to say
I don’t know who you are
‘Cause you’re hiding it inside
And you have no idea what I keep locked inside
Well lets have another drink
Can I get a smoke?
Have another drink
Give me a toke
Have another drink
Walk in traffic
I will lay on asphault
I will was off the scars with tears
I will hold your arms
Carress your skin
just let me in
let me in
We lie, we lie, we lie
Well you tried, you tried
We die, we die inside
But what else are we supposed to do
Thats life
Thats what we’re taught
So lets just keep it inside
Just another confused young mind
