Unspokenly Required Holiday Post

Yule Die, Yule Survive
I am dying
From the lack of sleep
But I am trying
To set myself apart
From myself
Let you all believe
I am what you want me to be
So happy holidays
Take life with a grain of salt
I’ll be the pepper spray
In your eyes
So here we go
Who’s ready to die?
We do this all the time
Where I come from
I don’t know
Where I belong
I can choose
To let it go
And I can choose
To let myself doze
Miss this day
Forget
Just like any day
This may just be any day
So here is your song
I’m a broken bird
And I can’t sing
I would fly home to you
If only I had unbroken wings
The pain is settling
The adrenaline is pumping
These tired eyess
They won’t go away
So why should I pressure them
These wanting eyes
Will not be satisfied
Until the happieness is inside
Until then I will die
How could I miscalculate?
If I could chosoe
This ship would stop sinking
Land fast approaching
The storm has come and gone
We are the wake
I don’t know who I am
Wake up sober in a foreign land
Blood on my hands
Where do we go?
Where do we go from here?
Hold on to who you love
With broken wings
I will drive all night long
To get back to my state
And as I cross the line
I will pull out the stops
All I want for Christmas
Is to say I love you
But I’m not sure
I know how to
Take me
Broken bird
Spread your wings
Nest with me
Oh love
Oh love
Wish I could say…
You can find me
With the other birds
On the freeway
Driving towards a dream
I don’t want to die
Alright?
Just want to be in your arms
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight I will dream of you

 I Have Not But An Oz. Of Creativity Left Within Me

A birthday
A new year
Aren’t you happy to be here?
He lights another joint
Puts on old clothes
And he’s out the door
Don’t know where to go
eat my breathe
burn, wax and wane
A birthday
I have smoked away my pride
I have smoked away my pride
I have smoked away my pride
Crawl out of here
Lost time
It’s all gone away
He flicks
And lights
But the spark ain’t comin’
And she ain’t comin’ back
The same old songs
The same old movies
The same old hopes
The same old dreams
But we still hold on
I have smoked away my pride
I have smoked away my pride
I have smoked away my pride
The life we lived just up and died
Eat my breathe, wane and wax
The sparks aren’t coming back
It is a birthday
It is a new year
I’m not sure what I’m doin’ here

+ & – *kisskissbangbang* what happened?

elytS euqse-esuoM tesdoM A

Everyones worried ’bout somethin’
Everyones afraid of dyin’
But the truth is we die every night!
Because we are a generation without a cause
So we fight for the right
To complain ’bout how we’re not right
And we swing to the left
Punch after punch
It’s a hell of a fight
But man what a sight it must be
Like watching Tyler Durden fight…
So we live another day
And we die another night
We love something we don’t understand
Just because we can
But, damn
What else can we do?
We gotta keep on livin’
And keep on dyin’ too!

1-8

I Can Dish It Out, But I Can’t Take It

So he said to me
“Thats called paranoia”
And that was the end of the conversation
But it echoes in my head
All the empty space
To fill with unwant fright
So I say, I say, I am alright
And sometimes I lie
But as my mother said to me
This morning
Or maybe yesterday
(Time means nothing)
“You seem to have
Such a better disposition
Have you stopped taking your meds?”
Well I am ok, alright
Thats what I said, I said
So I lay around in bed
Waiting for a phone call
Or maybe a message
Listening to the same songs
And waiting for the work day to begin
So where do I begin?
Maybe thats not for me to decide
If you’re craving more
Thats far too bad
Because this is the end

…so what did you do those three days you were dead?

(he)Art Machine (All Alone(?))

Drain me of my energy
Destroy me
My enemies
It’s me
It’s always me
I am but a man
No one can be one machine
Cold steel
So lonely
But this is breathing
This is bleeding
My own worst enemy
So the sleeping wake
The dreaming face up
Reality is too much to get
So we got fed up
Flew through another year
Thought we were something special
But in the end we just repeated the same old stories
So like a vampire
Drain me
I love my enemies
So much
So much it hurts my head
There goes myface
We put you in the back of our mind
Tied you down with a dull tethered line
We fabricated an end
Hoping for good
But we knew we were evil
In the end
Say you want to be my friend?
So we prepare
To fly through another year
Packed our supplies
To keep our energy high
You can’t drain this
We have invincibility
We will rise
You’ll look to the skies
Regret
Believing in lies
A heart lies inside

and the words all sound the same

Feels Like…

You get
To me
Like no one else
Hoo-ray
Hoo-ray
You make me feel
Like a new day
Hoo-ray
Learn
Life lessons
We all gotta change
It’s ok
Hoo-ray
Hoo-ray

mixtapesandmemories

Forget The Metaphors

Drifting along
Learning I am my fathers son
Saying things no one cares to hear
Feeling so good and bad
Burning like a candle
(…sinking like a stone in the sea)
Not hard to defeat me
I’m tired, sad and lonely
Except when you’re with me
And they don’t wanna hear it
They leave me feeling guilty
Tired and lonely
(…I’m burning like a bridge…)
It’s ok
It’s alright

i love when the snow comes

Shoes

Well my foot fell asleep the other day
Made me forget what I had to say
So I let it go
Say, hey, where did the day go?
So another day goes by
And I learn to be alright
Now I don’t want to talk it over
I can’t make peace
It’s over, it’s over
I’m sorry it’s so easy
But the days go by
And time will heal me
Will you let it heal you too?
Why do you let me get to you?
So tell all your friends
Life is pretty
Pretty shitty
And I will glorify existance
For the mear fact that I can
I will be happy to be alive
Just because I am
And now I really am
So I’m sorry we’re not on the same page
I finished the book
And I heard the movies not all that great
So don’t waste your time
I’ll tell you what happens in the end
He moves on
And she finds a better man

hi-story

History (–)

I don’t want to
Tell you
But go ahead
Ask, ask
I will tell
Tell
I don’t r eally care to know
So don’t, don’t
I am ready for a birth
Reborn unto a fresh breathe
So be some kind of air
It doesn’t matter
I will suck it in
Smoke, hope… hope
Dream, dream, fall
Get back up
Repeat
This process is never enough
We need to breathe
Breathe!
I am no demon
Nor an angel in disquise
But the demons rage inside
And the angels left me to fight
So I sit
And I think
How can I erase
His story
My history
It’s a building block
To who I am
Who I am?
Well if you want to know
Just ask
Ask
But I’m telling you now
I don’t question every breathe
So be some kind of air
So I can breathe you in
Can I breathe?
Let’s forget about history

iamtheripoff

(A) Decline

I was missing a feeling
I knew not was dead
I was hooked on a feeling
Until it bled
I bled

(one)

I was caught up in the idea
Of being dead

(two, three)

I was strung out in the streets

(No, I can’t catch)
I don’t want to know
Where you’ve been
Everyone seem’s to know
Where you’ve been
(four, five, six)
Oh how I wish I could dissapear
We’ll see who’s the better man
I swear I always did
The
Best
I…

(seven, eight)
I wish I could say I am sorry
But I’m tired of lies
Wish I could show I am happy
But I cannot hide
It’s been eating me inside

(…nine)

So touch me
Or let it alone
Give me a sign
Do I Have hope?
I lost all my taste
My eyes have worn out
I can no longer dream
Tastes like cotton in my mouth
It comforts me to know
I don’t really know
Where you’ve been
It feels so good to be new
A fresh breathe of air
(Wait for the snow
So I can make impressions
And revel in them
Far after we’re gone)
I see
Clear
I breathe
Please speak

Touch me or don’t
But if you choose to hold me
I may never let go
So this is a warning

(one, two, three, four)
I can never let go
Where’ve you been?

postthought

I will sleep
Eventually
I will live
Again
I swear
But time are changing
It’s another year
Gone
Bye
Oh I wish I could be
Who I was
But we can’t rewind
Why try
So I take apart my head
Give it away
For free
And what else is out here
On the market
For free?
Oh I wish I could be
Somebody else
But I am
Unfortunately
Who I chose to be
So sorry
It’s to bad it was left up to
The demons inside of me