gotta make that motor run, gotta make it hum

For The Love Of The Fight

I’m sorry my friend
Respect is a word I have reserved
Self control!
Self control!
Do you…?
Day one:
My God, my friend
Hear what I said?
We are our parent’s living mistakes
We are living their nightmares
So it’s time to live our own lives
So try
Please try!
Do you?
Oh, Jesus Christ
Will you save us all
Or am I destined to die alone
Well, I don’t believe it this time
No, No, No, November has come
Oh, oh, oh, oh what a mess
Well I’m a liar and a thief
But at least I tried
At least I didn’t cheat
Oh, Jesus Christ is on my side
No matter how many times I have denied
He is watching in the dark tonight
Well, at least I tried
And I can’t blame  y ou
We all live through day two
And day three
Oh, I can’t blame you
You can only blame yourself
Thats what he said
Yeah, thats what he said
So will you grow this time
Or be a child again?

it’s not easy

(This Piece Is Untitled Only Because No Title Will Fit)

Dear God
I try and try
To fight the good fight
But you already know
The demons never give up
The’ve infested everyone
But it’s ok
Love still remains
It’s my saving grace
Keeps me going everyday
And Lord you know
I’ve stopped messing around
No more drugs
None of Satans water
I look down upon none
They are all my friends
I’ll always let them in
But God, they don’t understad
I’m a sinner
And I may be until the end
I can’t stop the sadness
That demon will never leave
So I try and drown him
Now in prescribed medication
I’ve come to terms with
I may be on this
For the rest of my days
And thats ok
Because the hope still remais
Dear God
You know I love my parents
I apologize to them everyday
Something I don’t have to say
They know
I put them through hell
But they didn’t live it like me
I wallowed in doubt and misery
I dream of my youth
When I believed you were listening
But I didn’t have much to say
Come hell or high water
I know you are there
I’m sorry I don’t seem to care
I swear and I swear
I am no martyr
I am no saint
I take your name in vien
Everyday
I am not asking for forgiveness
I know I don’t deserve it
I’m not searching for an answer
I’m just putting myself out there
Notice me?
One day I may be a Godly man
But inside I am a sinner to the end
Religion is a broken home
And I am a broken man
I will continue to fight
Fight off the demons
And I will continue to let you inside
Whenever you see fit
To rage with the devil
Inside of my head
If I go crazy
Spare my soul from them
I’ve spent a life wrestling
Burning in my own hell
Don’t let me go unnoticed
I am only human
And this is my fight
I am only human
I just want you to show your goddamn face
Show us your existance
‘Cause all we live with is demons!
I’m tired of this
Everyday I say
Fuck this shit
But they keep coming
And I keep trying
And I keep coming to this place
Where I try to talk to you
But you don’t reply
Since I was too young to realize your scope
I wanted to hear your voice
but you don’t speak to me
Drowning in this sea
See me?
God are you listening?
I am not trying to commit blasphemy
I am only human
I am only saying what no one wants to admit they think
When they’re alone amongst meloncholy
Dear God
I truly wish to believe
Show me something
Say anything
MURDER THE DEMONS!
I cannot fight them off on my own
I AM ONLY HUMAN!
Where, oh where, did you go?